With relationships there are always going to be up and downs and that’s okay because without them, the relationship would be boring I would rather have an argument and fight than be quiet and passive. The excitement of a relationship is not knowing what will happen next it may get dull at times but those are reminders to add some spontaneous moments those “fuck it let’s do it” moments which will make get memories and better stories to tell.
I am still amazed on how long I’ve been in a relationship since this is my longest relationship sure I will admit there have been times where I thought of breaking up but the I realized how empty my life would be without my girlfriend so dull and lonely. I mean sure I would be a flirt or jump from one relationship to another but to have a stable relationship where it isn’t all about sex and both people put in their blood, sweat, and tears into the relationship that is more meaningful and worth all the effort and time.
I hope everyone gets to experience that one relationship that they will never regret regardless if they break up or not everyone deserves to feel what it feels like to wake up and know someone loves and cares about, to argue and fight with someone they love to show regardless of how the fight ends that you still love each other, how it feels to be passionate and supportive for someone, to feel like you’ve been push to your limits, to feel all these things negative or positive to make you into a better or different person that’s what real about a relationship not all that lovely dovey crap you see in the movies a relationship is fights and arguments mixed in with those lovely dovey moments, it’s 2 people working out their differences making compromises and sacrifices for each other. Now that is what a real relationship is and I hope everyone gets to experience what that feels like and not regret one moments of it.
Its funny how I think back and think of all the ways I could have not been a loser growing up in school from telling the girl I liked, I liked her in first grade to graduating high school. Shit happens from time to time if I could go back they would be a lot of things I could change from crying pretty much every year and looking like a bitch at school in front of everyone, trying to talk to girls, embrassing moments and not being all around lame, not going to lie those experiences made me who I am today but it I will always have thoses “why the fuck did you do that?” moments when I thing about my past.
It’s not all bad but they again it wasn’t all good either, all the things I could have pursued or learned when I was young I regret now as an adult. It just amazes me how many years passed by and I still don’t know how to speak fluent Tagalog or a have particular special talent so many missed oppertunies to better myself only to have flown past me in my bliss as a child.
So many things I would have changed during my past school years, so many things I would take advantage of if I had the chance to go back and redo things. But things can never be changed now no matter how much I want to and that is life you win some you lose some and to me I feel like I lost more than I have won but then again there are still more oppertunies to be taken, more chances to redeem myself, more chances to make long lasting memories.We all should appreciate what we had, what we have, and what we work for so that each moment in our lives is never wasted and so each memory we care will always have a story to follow.
Did you know your birth order reflects your personality of who you are today?
Oldest Child: The oldest child are rarely bad. They come off as bossy because they created a sense of responsibility at a very young age. They are usually the most bossy in the family however, they are people pleasers. Oldest children tend to marry or stay and maintain a relationship for a long period of time. They are perfectionist and at times put themselves under a lot of pressure.
Youngest Child: They often behave as if they are the only child. They expect others to do things and make decisions for them. At times they feel the weakest/smallest of the family. They are very tricky and know how to manipulate people into doing things for them. The youngest child are fun and very liked by others. They are usually really good at examining and studying people. The youngest child are usually the loudest of the group. They seek and like being paid attention to. If you are dating a youngest child, the worst thing you can do is tell them what to do. They have low maintenance expectations in a relationship. They are innovative and usually have the best sense of humor. They are usually undisciplined, self-centered, and have a high ego of themselves.
Middle Child: The middle child never had rights of a older and younger child. They often feel as if life is unfair. They are very adaptive and can compromise better than others. They are good at keeping promises and get along people really well. They are willing to do things differently. They are very independent and usually don’t rely on others. They are the peacemaker of the group but at the same time is rebellious. Friends might become an impact on the middle child’s life. They are very stubborn and dislike computation. They don’t usually ask for help. They either feel too embarrassed or rather learn for themselves. They either marry quickly, or really late. If late, they will wait for the right/perfect person. They are calm but fierce on the inside. They don’t like to open up or share their feelings.
As a friend shouldn’t you always support your friend into a relationship with another person and only stop it for obvious reasons other than selfish reasons? Just because you “feel” like they shouldn’t be together doesn’t mean they shouldn’t, to judge a person on a past relationship without knowing all the facts is wrong. Everyone deserves a chance, so give them one.
As a friend shouldn’t you always support another friend’s happiness? Hearing that your own friends can’t stand the idea of you and another person being together is digusting in itself when either person hasn’t done anything wrong other than just holding hands.
It’s sad to see the closed minded and ugly side of people not supporting others just because they “feel” it isn’t right. Before telling people that you don’t approve of their potential relationship why don’t you put yourself in their shoes?
The person who you like just got out of a year long relationship and is just enjoying life. They are commited to the 3 month rule of not becoming someone’s significant other for 3 months, which is a big task in its own, they don’t have a bad record of abusing their significant other, just a bit of a temperment because of their ex holding them back trying to tie them down, knowing that a reason of breaking up is because they try and try to make time to be together with their significant other at the time and always being told “Sorry I can’t hangout or whatever”, to be escorted home everyday after school and have them wait for you even though they are done with classes.
Yes, that person sounds like the worse significant other a person can have and you are preventing a potentially great relationship just because you “feel” like it would ruin the friendship between you and that person. The only person ruining that friendship is you, if you were a true friend you would support them with open arms and though they might be gone for awhile doesn’t mean the friendship is over and if the relationship doesn’t happen to end to an unhappy ending they you should be there to comfort and console them without even muttering the words “I told you so” because true friends will always be their caring for not only their own happiness but the happiness of their other friends.
Maybe that’s why it’s so hard to find friends who will stick with you and have your back through the good, the bad and the ugly because they are too caught up in what they “feel” is right. To be stuck in their own paradigm on how the world around them should be. Sad to say it but most people even myself at times can be this person but it doesn’t mean you are a bad person you just have to open your arms, heart, and mind to the world around you because if you don’t have people to support you the world around you will close up and get smaller and smaller until it consumes you and you will have no one to run to, no one to support you, no one to comfort you, you will just have yourself. Everyone needs someone and no one, I repeat, no one should prevent your happiness and those so called friends hold you back and aren’t there to support you when you fall they aren’t your friends at all. They are just people stuck in their make believe world believing they can shape the world the way they “feel” is right. And to be honest you never want to be associated with those type of people, at the end of the day you want to be surrounded by people who support you, who inspire you, who will catch you when you fall and ask no questions about it. Those are the people you want to call friends.
So I just had a dream that scared the shit out of me, it wasn’t a scary/horror kind of dream it was me the realization of something about myself to understand I will tell you how it went.
So me and my family were out and about and we were in a game store looking around and my something caught my eye, Sony came out with there own version of the iPad which I wanted and I was going to ask my mom to get it for me but I knew I didn’t deserve it and she would say no so I didn’t bother asking so I kept looking around and saw that she bought it for my brother which I knew he didn’t deserve it which ticked me off and this wasn’t some sibling jealous my brother didn’t really deserve it, so me and mom got into a heated argument and I left pissed off. Then after that the whole family headed to the car to head out but then me, my brother and my sister were out first I was at the car then my sister got in and my brother was lagging because he was playing the thing my mom bought him but as he was walking some sales guy tried talking to him trying to get him to buy a phone and I yelled at the guy “Get away from him he! He’s a minor!” but the just would not stop then my dad came and I stepped down to let my dad handle it he got my brother to the car then the salesmen tried to convince my dad to buy something which pissed me off and I told him “we are not interested so leave us alone!” Then he said something under his breathe which pissed me off even more, then this guy got in my face and my mom got in between us to break it up then she shoved my mom and that’s when I snapped shoved the guy to the ground but before I did anything I stopped myself and started to leave but again he said something under his breathe like be called me a bitch or something so I ran back about to stomp on his face I smashed my arm with my cast into the something he was selling and broke it into a lot of piece and I took out my wallet and shoved $20 in this guys face and when I got up I realized 2-3 CCTV cameras where around then I got scared they recorded it and I woke up.
As you can see it wasn’t a scary dream but it was all to real for my arm started to hurt where I smashed whatever the salesmen was trying to sell and the thing is my arm is in a cast so that freaked me out. What scared me was that the more I keep getting pissed off and I just snap the less I can control my anger, I use to be able to control my anger very well. I was never known as the person that gets mad more of a happy go lucky person that got along with almost everyone. And for that dream to happen scared the shit out of me to come to a realization that my anger is getting the best out of me, it’s the reason my arm is in a cast I broke my 5th metacarpal bone (the pinky bone) because I punched the floor when I was mad at someone and I just got scared because I am worried what if I lose my temper again that I will do something I will regret like hurt a love one or friend or send someone to the hospital I am scared for my life because at times I don’t know my own strength and I don’t know what exactly I am capable of and mixing that with my anger is a dangerous situation I mean in my dream I used my cast as a weapon what more if I got into a fight at school or something my cast is as hard as a hammer I could seriously hurt someone if I lost control of my anger, I am making it seem like I am The Hulk or something, but I am scared something bad will happen if I lose my temper again I just don’t know what that is and that is what scares me just not being able to control my anger.
And even though we went our separate ways, I just want you to know that you were and always will be well worth my time and effort.
We were once perfect for each other, I want you to remember that. We once looked at each other with nothing, but love in our eyes, and even though that time is over, I’ll never forget it.
The plants name is called “makahiya” and hiya in tagalog means “shy”.
whenever you touch the plants leaves, they immediately fold up together looking as if its really shy hence the name.
To be mad at your boyfriend/girlfriend is a twisted feeling a “should I just apologize or fuck this and stay mad” feeling. For a person who you truly care to piss you off should you just swallow your pride and say sorry or should you be mad that your boyfriend/girlfriend hasn’t apologized first? Is it worth to put your relationship on the line for an argument? Of course people would say no but to have an argument with your boyfriend/girlfriend is a different story where pride and stubbornness can get in the way and one or both people will not say sorry because each of them believe they are right or one of the expects the other to apologize. Funny how when you get in a relationship you expect the other person to watch what they say so it doesn’t piss you off or you expect them to know what gets you mad and expects that they won’t do those things.
It’s easy to say “fuck this and fuck you” but is that what you really want? In your head you scream to just go off on them but you don’t. Why? Because you love them and one argument shouldn’t end a relationship. But how do you know when enough is enough? That is up to the person to draw the line and say enough is enough no one knows how far a person is willing to go, some people will have a long threshold before they will react but there are people who will just go off by a wrong look or attitude. When do you know when enough is enough?
I don’t get why people cheat on their boyfriend/girlfriend why not just end the relationship if that person doesn’t make you happy why be with them? Is it because they don’t love you like they use too? Or is it simple because you don’t know what you want and you want it all?
Life is a bitch sometimes we find they person we want to spend our whole lives with and we find people who just come in and out of lives and just become a memory of our past but that still no excuse to cheat on a person because if you truly love them why cheat on them? Just to satisfy your own selfish desires?
It’s sad to see a couple throw away their whole relationship due to a person not being able to keep their hands to themselves. Why do we have to keep hurting each other and just stop hiding all the bullshit and be real.
And I have always wondered how a person can cheat on another person then leave the person they are with and be with another person when the person they were with when they didn’t do anything wrong what so ever and how one person can trust another when they know that the person they are with is capable of cheating on them if they wanted too?
It is a trip on how people will hide and hurt someone without them even knowing for so long. It is just sad to hurt a person who loves you to just so you can fulfill their own selfish desires…
It’s such a strange feeling to see an ex and have no hate toward them just wanting a strong friendship with them. Just wanting to be there for them like it was before to put to rest of that you knew what could have been and found out it didn’t work out and being perfectly fine with that. And just have a just to have a platonic mutual relationship with a person that you once had feelings for isn’t that what everybody wants? To have a friendship with an ex without having that awkward tension between each other and just have it to the way it use to be and not involving any mixed signals. Just to remember all the good time not the bad times that lead to the break up or fights or arguments just to be happy for each other and have a mutual respect for one another.
Is that so hard to ask for? Apparently it is because people will always remember the bad and forget the good. When a person does something good it is easily forgotten but when a person does something that hurts another it will always stay in the back of that person’s mind why can’t we just appreciate what we had and move on but then again that is always easier said than done if only it was that easy.
I’d rather be alone in my dorm because for the most part I choose to do so and if I want to go out I can. But being alone at home is not a choice, it is merely rule.
I just need to remind myself to move along… whenever I encounter a simple minded person.. I must move along with my life.